In the sky there is the moon

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 23:13:57 GMT

he is killing me
along w/ everything else

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 00:53:32 GMT

life is so weird.

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 01:59:14 GMT

ive been so nice.
but now i just
hate you

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 16:58:59 GMT

i work too much
im so freakin ready for school
meaning im so ready for college.
lets get this over with.

i love summer
and i love my friends

and i love my family

and i miss everyone alot. ALOT.

my summer trips were great.

from the first beach trip to the last

loveyou

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 18:22:36 GMT

i havent written in here in
forever it feels like..

summer has been okay, not as good as i hoped for but whatever.
thursday we went to the rope swings which are so fun
friday mere and I took a little road trip.. pictures later.
saturday we had fun w/ george and andy in a barn.. weird.
last night went to philippes

tonight is FIGHT NIGHT...

and im in a bad mood

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 02:07:51 GMT

would u please just stop saying that stuff!
aslkfjsdlfjsf
STOP EVERYONE.

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 22:01:04 GMT

Okay so i just got the best offer of my life

TEN DAYS IN SPAIN.

i'll be in school : (

but maybe we can work it out... how amazing

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 03:08:27 GMT

i am becoming pretty fed up with almost everyone i interact with on a daily basis.

i truely need summer.

katie and i went driving in the wrangler.
then we ate, as usual. damn that car is cute.
picked up drew boo (THATS MY NAME BITCH)and listened
to rap music.

i need to raise my grades.
no school on friday. im so excited. its also prom night,
which means good times, even though im not going.

and im giving a pint of blood tomorrow during 5th and im probably goin to pass out with my little sugar muffin (kelly).

Sat, 28 May 2005 13:15:55 GMT

im not going to do that for a long time.

no more of it.

last night was random and weird, but at times it was fun. thanks carm : )

love U.

Fri, 27 May 2005 01:16:48 GMT

I need a JOB.
my cash flow has become non-existant.

im really just ready for school to end.
everyone is basically done except for us.
but this was really our only full week of school leftm
so whatever, its bare able.

me and mere arent going to prom. so we better
be finding something good to get into next fridayy.

i want to go to the beach this weekend.. maybe ocean city?

he's trying so hard now, and its so odd because i've gotten completly
used to him not really being there, and i geuss i didnt really realize
it until attempts were made.

*and i've missed U and its making me happy.*

Wed, 25 May 2005 02:52:04 GMT

Today was a much better day

things are starting to get better
even just a little bit is makin me happy.
and that goes for both things that have been goin wrong.

I got some really cute pics back of katie and I in cancun and some other spring break pics
and the cvs mother fuckers gave me some ugly ass peoples disk and now im creeped otu cause they are gonna be seein us in our bathing suits..
alright peace and love.

Sun, 15 May 2005 17:40:40 GMT

my internet has been broken for a week! whew yee

anyways. things are alright. last night was bad.
my car is really messed up.
that sucks.

we still have alot of school left.
im so sick of it... all.
and im tired.

Tue, 03 May 2005 00:27:02 GMT

flipside was so much fun! i had a great time. katie and i went and met up with nano and then with lydia and lauren. the weather was perfect. Nano was amazing and got us 4 backstage passes. we saw the bands we love. we got free pizza. we hung out with talented people. i love mark more than waffles. i had a fucking great time. alskdjfsldkjf.

waiting for pictures from lydia and katie.. hopefully they will be up soon. : )

i loved seeing everyone and i love everyone.. great day! even my sunglasses burn couldnt bring me down.

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 00:02:07 GMT

alright alright
school was fine. i tich gave me a B which really pissed me off so i gotta talk to her tomorrow. and stevens gave me a C+ which made me even more mad. went to get my stiches out... they said i have to go get another little surgery again. results positive? yeah so that sucks .. alot.

after that i picked up mere moo and we did our monday jerry's thing. which is always fantastic. then i took her home...
my koala is deflating..

i am praying i can go to flipside. if my parents keeep me from that im gonna be pretty upset. i wish they understood how happy this one thing can make me.. ACE. come ON.

<33

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 21:38:42 GMT

this weekend was enjoyable.. especially for getting off grounding and such. friday i went to aves and fudruckers and nothing really.. then i went to dari's for alittle bit until i had to be home.
saturday hung around aves.. went to a hotel room for a while then we saw ammityville horror all happied up and stuff.. yeah it was pretty fun.

todaaay i got to see my LOVE and im so happy that today was good and we laughed alot and i love you. k bye

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 00:17:12 GMT

and yet again i was fed another lie.
and now my stomach feels twisted AGAIN.

jkasjdfklsjdg

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 19:27:41 GMT

everythings alright.
atleast until my mom gets home..

my dad was being really nice.
grounded this week aand cant sleep
out for while, which is gonna be
rough, but i gotta live with the
consiquences.

i have no appetite.

miss u.

there are things that i want to change
i decided today.

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 21:03:37 GMT

I hate you.

so much

you dont do that to your sister.

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 03:19:14 GMT

yeah i feel like everyone is feeling the same way as me right now.
i cant stand it, so fucking frusterated and stressed out. i feel unhealthy
because i dont get enough sleep. and its not like its paying off, im still failing everything.. well not everything but enough. i've never failed a class in my life and this really isnt the time to start.

not only is school kicking my ass but i just feel like nothing is in place.
nothing is right. my relationships with people. my health. what im doing.
Im not making bad decisions.. im being more spontaneous. im just scared
im gonna stop being the person i was and become careless of everyone.
i dont think i could ever ever be like that, but the thought of changing
like some people have, scares me alot.

the time is coming for the people i've known as long as anyone, to leave. its scary and it sucks because ... welll i dont know really what i'd do w/o some of them and how i'l ever have a fun party night with out all of them. its just whack. its taking away soo much security i have had since i was in 7th grade. but i mean I'll get over it i geuss..

i just realy want it to be 2 10 tomorrow afternoon. i want to have a great night. and a great weekend. and i want things to be better for me and everyone else. and i want everyone to stay safe and i want to pass my exams tomorrow.

thank you and goodnight.

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 00:10:48 GMT

school was good today
im so happy theres only
2 more days of this week left.
even though i have alot of work to do.

i cant wait for this weekend.,

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 01:59:13 GMT

what an awesome weekend

for serious.

Friday : was w/ carly. ave and rach came and picked us up... then we went to Amir's and chilled, that was good fun for the little while we were there. went back to rachys and stayed up ALL FUCKIN NIGHT.

Saturday: CLEANED MY ROOM! then went to Jessies to get kase and her. went to brendans and had a great time with some pong. conor and i kicked ass... once.. haha. rach and sam and ash picked me up... yeah i dont know. we had a fun time. drove around for ever. went to Joeyyysssss for a long ass time. hahaha greaaaaat fun. drink and jordan got in a fight which was hilarious. then we went back to aves and slept at like 3ish.

Sunday: Almost the best so far: I went home from aves, as soon as i got home i drove out to a far away land to pick ave up at nick morans... so far away. then we went to mcdonalds so she could finish a big mac meal. then we went to westwood and ate amazzzzzzzing food and ash came too.. then we went to aves and got ready for georgetown!! will and b rad came and got us and we went there after a detour. stayed and walked around for houuurss! it was loveellyy. then we went back b rads and chilled on the deck. tiiighhtt shiittt.

happy

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 23:48:42 GMT

today sucked.
i could feel my skin being pulled wiht every stich.
gahsdkljlad
now it hurts..

im trying harder and harder to get my mom to let me do
something... and im getting a little bit closer
everyday.

i have alot of shit to do.
zach got into his college of choice!
im so proud!

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 22:34:19 GMT

as much as i fucking love this weather.
today i felt as though my skin was on fire.

baby sat my baby will today, and took some
hopefully good pictures. then by brother
made me feel really guilty and was being
a butt.

tomorrow is tomorrow.
i dont think im going
to go in to school in the morning..
is it worth it to be there less than an hour?
no didnt think so.
then surgery shit.
then probably stay home
because my mom will let me.
ha.

have a lovely day.

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 23:17:40 GMT

today was beautiful.
it was spent doodling on my notebooks
and day dreaming about running around
outside in the sun. my dream came true
7th period when we went outside for some
of class..lovely.
right after school erin1 jesika nate and i
went to my house and packed up a picnic, then
we went tto great falls, ate and did the usual
meditation. then i saw huge spiders and we left.

tomorrow i have to babysit the baby for 30 minutes.
thursday i have that stupid cancer surgery which,as
much as i dont admit it, freaks me out. then friday
i have a hair appt. not sure what i want to do...
suggestions anyone??

my throat hurts.

i miss you

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 22:44:03 GMT

i just watched Closer.

im left with an incredibly depressed and
empty feeling now. but i almost want to
watch it again. it just confuses me...

then again so does life..